It occurred to me yesterday morning that I have spent more time living in this house without my Rob, that I got to spent living in it with my Rob.
The thought stopped me right in my tracks and took my breath away.
This has been my 3rd holiday season without him.
I’ve been doing a lot of reflection this past week. The past 2 year’s has been both good and bad.
I’ve lost so many of my babies. Nicky, Socks, Tink, Airgead, Bruid, Angus, and more. I miss seeing their faces around the pasture and yard.
And I have so many babies still here for me to love on. I am grateful for that.
I’ve lost people who I thought were friends, they just up and disappeared on me since Rob passed away.
And I found out who my true friends really are. I am grateful for that.
I was reduced to begging for help to keep my farm going, and I lost what little dignity I had.
And so many came forth willing to support and help me. I am grateful for that.
I am trying to keep a mindset of gratitude going forward. I know I’ll have days where that is not going to happen. Days where I’ll be cursing the world. Days where I’ll have my arms around the house wolf as I cry. And days where maybe I can smile a real smile just a little.
I don’t make resolutions, it’s too hard on my heart and mind to do that and I don’t need more added anxiety over failing again over that. All I can say is on this day, I will try again.
To all of you who have stood by me, listened to me cry, held my hand, offered your help and been my friend, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Your blessings shall be repaid a thousand fold.
To my friends and dear readers, I hope this next year brings you everything you could ever desire.
Blessed Be.
Good grief, I was better prepared, living in the dorm. The floor below us had some football players so our floor help with money, the guys carried CASES of beer and we were off to the races in the snow. We all went to a convenient store and the cafeteria (with food coupons in hand) and grabbed whatever was nonperishable. So, we were all set! Beer, popcorn, munchies, pastries, maybe an apple, fruit juice and beef jerky, what else would one need in a crisis?
Guess we just showed our age, friend.
Just wondering if you are going to get the BOMB storm next week. If you are and you did not live through the one in '78 take it VERY seriously, it could save your life! Growing up along Lake Erie, I know snow, and normally it is no big deal. But I was at Bowling Green State University, OH when it hit. I 90 was closed, trucks and cars buried. Snow mobiles were the only way to get to people. The National Guard had to air lift food to us. Construction frontend loaders were the only way to get to people, the snow was too deep for plows in an area prepared for snow. You drove through 10+ foot tunnels aka roads. If you had a one-story home, you could go to your roof and sled down. The drifts were up to 15 feet deep. This one is not to be as bad as that one, but it is a very dangerous storm.