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May 3Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

“When I work on one project, I feel like I should be working on a different one.” That is the worst feeling and I’m very familiar. I used to feel that way all the time. My thoughts are with you!

PS it’s a little on the hilarious side how obvious your dream is. :)

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Thank you for the commiseration, it is much appreciated. I do hate that feeling also, as you can tell.

Yeah, those chaos dreams are pretty obvious. They still suck though.

PS I am currently having another mouse invasion in the house and we are doing our best to eradicate them.

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And yet you can do this. One task at a time.But you must be sure to keep us posted on your progress. I feel such a sense of support for your situation and hope the pleasure your writing brings to all of us is the tonic your guilt needs to disappear.

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Thank you I appreciate your support. I hope that maybe I can inspire others, or at least let them know they are not alone. This life is difficult for so many of us now.

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May 2Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

*hug*

Spring is overwhelming like that. I haven’t even looked at the fleeces shorn two weeks ago, I have multiple fence repairs that have to be made before I can turn the horses out back (and save money on buying hay), not even remotely set up for lambs in two weeks, need to get coats repaired and back on the sheep, behind the 8 ball on gardening again this year, dye cooperative stuff needing done NOW…and….eff the house, in its entirety….ugh.

It’s like I’m so grateful that the weather warmed up so I can Do Stuff, but the overwhelming pile of Stuff to be Done is growing at an exponential rate and the rising anxiety is killing me.

Started drinking a cup of skullcap tea at night and that’s helped a lot with the chaos dreams at least and lessened the anxiety during the day. Maybe that would help you? Happy to post the recipe my herbalist friend gave me.

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Oh we are so much in the same boat!!

I would love your recipe, i'm willing to try anything that will help!

Love and hugs

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May 2Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

I’ll send it to you via messenger. I am going to pick up some more skullcap this weekend from Herbs and Arts in Denver, I’ll mail you some to try. I typically buy from Mountain Rose Herbs but I’m pretty much out and don’t want to wait on shipping.

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Thank you!

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As one farmer to another - you are indeed doing the best you can - be kind to yourself. I divide my day into chores and one fix up job. Walk around the farm with a notebook once a week then prioritize. And always give myself a 30 minute break after lunch. Have you ever considered woofers? That site is a great way to find people who will help you on the farm - for food and a space to pitch their tent. Farming alone can be overwhelming - you are in good company.

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May 6·edited May 6Author

Thank you, I'll check out that link. I appreciate your support, Yup, farming can be rough!

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The best part is the early morning cuppa while leaning on the gate. After that it is all down hill!😂

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LMAO!

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No advice just hugs for the hard times. I’m in awe of how you keep going.

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Thank you very much.

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May 3Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

For me, even when the list is long, it helps to check off a couple of small boxes, if only to feel some sense of accomplishment. The busy-ness of our world is exhausting so the list never really grows shorter. Be patient with yourself, and know that you’re doing an amazing job on all you do (which would feel just as overwhelming if you had daily help- you’d always find more to be done).

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So very true!!

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May 2Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

Guilt is nothing more than childhood Catholicism! Let it go! Do what you can, when you can. Celebrate the wins, you are awesome! I love you

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Yeah, we both know where that came from. I'm doing what I can. Some days are so much harder than others, as you also know. Love you more

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Take 30 seconds and beat yourself up more, OK done? You can only do what you can do. My immediate challenge is to tackle my to do list when I have been thru 2 weeks+ of laryngitis. Think it is viral and will need to get oral steroids next week. Need to get seeds in and onions planted today. Please take care.

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I'm so sorry to hear you have been sick, that sucks! I hope you feel better soon and the steroids help you.

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Thank you. Oh what I left out was to write a resource on grief to activate my substack.

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Looking forward to reading that

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May 8Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

You are more than enough! I understand the feeling though; you just described my life in better words than I could. I feel like a wishbone, an octopus shaped wishbone being pulled from all directions. And everything breaking and Brad up to his ears in work and no time to fix anything.

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Oh I'm so sorry you are in the same boat. At least we are good company for each other!

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May 6Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

Woofers is great ! Wonderful people show up and lots gets done. Folks from all over the world. You’ll be a wonderful teacher !

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May 3Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

Most of those feelings you describe are so familiar to me although the amount of physical work involved is incomparable. Most of the time, if I can try and get atleast one of the things done, it feels like a huge burden is lifted off. The guilt part is the worst though. Hope things ease up a bit soon.

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Thank you. I do feel a burden lifted on occasion, I just wish it was more often.

Sorry you in the guilt club, its a sucky one to be in!

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May 3Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

Trying to work on it. 🙂 You are right, it would be great to have that light feeling more often and last longer maybe.

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All we can do is try!

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May 3Liked by Fat Turkey Farm

Hold on tight to the last couple of sentences you've written here. Sending hugs and energy your way. x

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I am trying too. Thank you!

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I often get overwhelmed by thoughts of all the things I want to get done and the panic of how will I do it all with my health limitations. I usually end up taking a deep breath and reminding myself it doesn't have to be done this instant and to just keep pecking away.

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Always good advice that I try to utilize. Since Rob passed the anxiety often takes over on me. Thank you!

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Erma Bombeck: Guilt is the gift that keeps on giving!

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Isn't it wonderful?

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never-ending source of torture, lol.

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